Monday, November 20, 2017

Depression Diary

What depresses me? At the moment, just about everything. My life and the (lack of) life around me.

My life: Lonely. Not due to a lack of people, but due to a lack of people on the same wavelength, people I can shoot the breeze with without them trying to correct me or argue with me. Someone I can be silly with and not be judged. One person with whom I can sit with in total silence for hours and call it a good time.

Life around me: Everywhere I look I see misery, even in the eyes of those who are 'having fun'. The vacant look, the hunched shoulders keeping others at bay, the fear, the deadness of existence. It's not just individuals, it's the whole world and the way it's run. 

Studies have shown that the majority of depressives are empathetic people, those who see the world around them in deeper and more varied colours than most. It's one reason we get depressed. 

We see the realities of the world and how little progress is made in changing it. Our leaders care nothing for 'us', business is little more than organised money-hoarding, and this in a world where there is plenty.

Those at the top want to maintian control, not to help, and it hurts us to see it. There are solutions to problems, but they are not used and it draws the happiness from us. Every world problem can be solved, but not by those who want to control. It seems to suit them to leave them unsolved, to leave the pain and suffering so they can blame others.

And people wonder why we get depressed.

The hope for change is the only hope we have and we're tired of fighting for it in our own lives, let alone the world's.

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